I have never been a hugger. My childhood didn’t involve hugs or kisses. I can’t even remember my parents saying that they loved me.
I vowed to be different with my kids and you know what – I am! I hug them (when they let me), I kiss them (when they let me) and most importantly I regularly say ‘I love you’.
So why can’t I be a hugger to friends?
I’ve had past relationships where I’ve been cheated on. All barr one in fact.
I cringe and wince when my husband hugs another woman, the old ‘she’s just a friend’ saying always rings through my mind…. because they have never been just a friend.
I like ‘a distance’ and to be honest it always seems to be the respectful thing. I respect my relationship and my husband. I could never hug a person of the opposite sex.
I think it’s also the fact I am frightened of getting close to people… because in the past ‘those so called friends’ have not been true friends after all. For example my best friend slept with my sons dad when I was pregnant – nice hey.
I am wary… I won’t lie.
However this Corona outbreak and the social distancing has kind of grabbed me by the shoulders and shook me.
I miss my friends – ok I can video call but it’s not the same.
I might and start hugging a bit more when this is all over.
Thing is ‘I’m frightened of getting hurt again’.
Being Betty 